The truth about sitting in the dark.

Having struggled on my own, fighting these demons, trying to stay strong for so long, it all came crashing down. I had withdrawn myself from all emotional feelings, put on a fighting smile and tried to conquer the day. If I played the role in the end I should surely start believing it right? WRONG….

The break through and the break down. 

So after being pushed around, poked, scanned and asked to get naked in front of every doctor, nurse I went to see even if it was for my fingers, for nearly a year. All this time I thought I could handle it all, take the pain, be the strong one, hold it all together, hide…

Being sent home.

Being sent home was all in all a blessing. I got to spend time with my family, rest peacefully in my own bed and binge Netflix’s! ( that was really the main reason 🙂 ) However I did go back to see a Vasucualr Surgeon at my local hospital, who after an X-ray told me…

On The Ward.

So I was 21 at the time. I was taken up to an elderly ward which had people suffering from dementia, amputee’s and the elderly. I was the only person under the age of 60, I told my parents to go home as they had huge bags under their eyes and to come back when…

It Start Like This.

So from that first scan, they sent me home saying to go to my doctor. Only I ended up in screaming pain knowing how scary and deadly blood clots can be. So I went back to A&E were they took one look at me and sent me straight back to a little room, put me…

The First Time.

It all started with a small pain in my shoulder blade that felt like I had been shot in the back, I had a small lump which I just assumed was a muscle knot so went about my ways. Only for the next day to see every single vein from the center of my chest…

Blood Clot’s and Me.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with a blood clot stuck in my Subclavian Vein, at 22 this is pretty rare, as I have no family history, ticket none of the physical or personal attributes that would lead me to develop a blood clot. Before last year I had very little knowledge about blood…